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17 November 2014 @ 06:58 pm
It's been three days since I broke up with my almost-3-year-boyfriend. Actually it would've been our 3rd anniversary in two weeks.

On the night we broke up, it felt so awkward because we didn't really have much to talk about. We weren't that compatible to begin with. And now that we're busy with our own's work, we barely have time for each other. The chemistry really had faded.

It was inevitable. We're the opposites but managed to stay together for so long. He likes night life like clubbing and drinking with his friends. I'm more like the introvert type who wants to play game and watch anime all day. For example, this week I've been feeling super happy about Naruto but I didn't mention it to him at all, no matter how excited I was, because he wouldn't understand.

So we both decided to take a break from the relationship. I'm a little bit sad, but I don't regret it. I mean, how can I be family with someone that I can't totally open up to? Fyi, he didn't feel comfortable about telling me everything either. So yeah I'm sure we've made the best decision.

I didn't cry that night. I just felt like suddenly empty, like losing something. But the next morning I cried a little because there was no "good morning" text that I always receive in the past 3 years. He was basically my life for 24/7, so I'm not used to this change. But I have to.

The next day, I went to the cosplay store to buy cosplay props. It really helped to take my mind off of my problems. I love my weeaboo life. Call me a dork, but I'm never gonna trade it for a night in the club full of nasty cigarettes. I know what I want in my life now.

Today I miss him a little because usually when something (non-anime/game) came up, I could just text him and talk about it. For a moment my mind automatically wanted to text him, but I snapped out of it. It's a bit sad because now I don't know who to talk to. But I'll try not to think about it too much. Hopefully I'll find someone who shares same life principles and interests with me. And with personality that doesn't suck.

I handle this breakup pretty easy. One day is all it took. For a 3-year-relationship, this is such an achievement. Compared to my breakup from 3-month-relationship six years ago, it took me 2 years to finally move on. I'm proud of how much I've grown stronger now.
So Yesterday - by Hilary Duff
the number one princess of the world ♪
07 November 2014 @ 06:20 pm
Finally. After all these years. I've been waiting for 9 years and now here it is. Sasuke and Sakura fell in love with another. They love each other, not just one sided as it used to be.

Christmas came early for me. But this feeling is waaaaay more wonderful than christmas or even my own birthday. All this time I've always doodled サスケ<3サクラ on every page of my books at school, and it finally came true.

I cried reading chapter 181 few years ago, I cried reading chapter 699 today. The feelings are different, but they are parallel emotions.

I can't contain my excitement inside. Whoaaa >_< Can't wait for the anime episode to air!
the number one princess of the world ♪
19 October 2014 @ 09:07 pm
1. Yesterday Ayumi Hamasaki came to sing live at a-nation concert in Singapore. It was so close from Indonesia and probably my only chance to meet her. The old me would do anything to come, but yesterday I decided not to go. Somehow seeing her live is not my dying wish anymore. I don't know why.. I always said I've saved $400 for her concert, but this time I don't event want to spend $200. In fact, I don't feel like spending my money for any concert at all. I think I've changed. Is that a good thing or bad thing?

2. So I stayed home and watch Sailor Moon Crystal ep.8 that just aired yesterday. Oh man, this episode made my face go :O the whole time. Sailor Moon suddenly kissed Tuxedo Kamen!! That was unexpected because I don't remember Usagi ever did that in the old anime?? Especially this is only ep.8, lol so fast. All my feelings from the 90's rushed here to 2014. Of course it's different because I was a little girl and didn't really understand romance and all, unlike now, but somehow I felt like suddenly living my childhood all over again. :')

So overall I'm happy. I'm a liiiiitle bit sad for not going to Ayumi's concert, but I don't regret it at all. I'll be using my money to buy Sailor Moon merchandise instead. Lol this girl never learn XD. But honestly, I prefer to buy products that I can hold for long than to pay for a concert, so...

FYI, so far I've purchased Sailor Moon's weapon: Moon Stick 1:1 replica, and Sailor Moon ribbon brooch iPhone case. Need to buy moreeeee~

the number one princess of the world ♪
26 May 2014 @ 10:59 pm
It’s been a week since I had a dream about Benedict Cumberbatch proposing to me. Then yesterday when I was shopping at department store, I spotted Attimo Pour Homme by Salvatore Ferragamo, the cologne that Benedict wears (all cumberbitches on tumblr know this, so don’t judge me). I didn’t specifically look for it. I had been, in the past, but it’s not very common and I couldn’t find it anywhere, so I was like whatever. But now!!

The department store only had four bottles of the 100ml one, so I bought one right away. Before I paid for it, I sprayed the tester on me excessively. Lol. I’m spending $100+ on it so why the fuck not treat myself with more.

So there you go, the very scent of Benedict Cumberbatch.

I went home smelling like a man. Because really, it is a very masculine cologne. I love it so fucking much. I know the smell of men’s perfumes like my dad’s Bvlgari Aqva or my brother’s Gucci Guilty, but nothing turns me on like this Attimo. It’s quite sharp and deep, but not too dark and mysterious. I’m not good at describing a scent, but let’s just say it’s gorgeous okay. And honestly it smells better over time. In the morning after it wears off, the smell is softer, but still very good and very manly! Dear every man out there, if you want to polish your manliness, this perfume is for you.

The cologne just screams masculine, but it’s also something a woman can wear. Because it smells so heavenly beautiful, and we all have masculine side in us, right? There’s nothing wrong with that. So yeah I’ll probably spray it on me every night before bed and wake up the next morning smelling like I just had sex with Benedict Cumberbatch and got his scent all over my body. Muahahaa *evil laughs*

The best scent to masturbate to, tbh.

Okay this post needs to end here before it gets more embarrassing than it already is. >////< But honestly I’m very happy about the purchase. Being a fangirl is never cheap, never easy, but it’s so worth it.
the number one princess of the world ♪
14 May 2014 @ 12:11 am
Last night I had a dream of Benedict Cumberbatch proposing to me. What? No really, this is the first time I talked to him in my dream (previously I only got to see him from afar). I don't want to lose the memory of this dream, so I'm writing it down. This was purely just a dream and not a fanfiction, I swear.

I threw a party in my house. There were a few of hollywood stars among my friends who came. Then there was Benedict Cumberbatch, he came with a girl who wears matching red & gray stripes tops just like him. I greeted him and invited him to sit on the couch. We apparently are close friends, he even once gave me a pair of earrings as a gift. In what occasion? No idea.
He sit down and the girl was standing on his left. On his right hand side, I sit next to him and my brother came to sit beside me. We were talking and at some point Benedict took out this small notebook. I think he kept some of his documents in that notebook. He also kept his health records in it. I saw a photo of his right eye on a certain page and asked what it is. He then told me that it's when he got stitches around his eye because apparently he got injury from doing Smaug. He also told me that he would like to settle down, have his own family and kids, and he's actually going to propose to someone soon. I assumed he was talking about the girl that he came here with.
And then this assumed girlfriend whispered something to him, and they both went to the bathroom to change clothes, now matching white. I was jealous (obviously) and didn't want to be there anymore. I went to another room in the house, decided to watch DVD.
Benedict came back from the bathroom and realized that I had left. He said to my brother who was still there, "Please tell me that she isn't mad," but my brother just shrugged, not sure. Benedict looked at his companion girl unpleasantly and said, "Show off."
They were looking for me. Finally that girl found the room that I was in and with annoyed look she said, "She's here." Benedict came in and I tried to act normal. He said shyly, "About the girl I want to marry, I want to give her earrings, but I already did," implying that the girl was me. I was surprised to hear that, but very happy. I was too happy that I was about to cry and couldn't say anything back. In fact, before I get to say anything at all, I WOKE UP.

I woke up feeling happy, embarrassed, and sad because it has just ended. I wanted to go back to the dream world. It's okay if I didn't wake up again, because the dream world was just too beautiful. For a moment I feel extremely happy because he was in my dream even though it's been a while since the last time I saw his face on my laptop or wherever. Good job, brain. Do it again tonight.